Random Posting

1. I woke up to see my baby and wife.

2. I was able to wake up and know that I have love in my life and caring people in my life.

3. I have three weeks of school left!

So, I am sitting in my Race and Minority relations class and I just feel the need to write down what I am feeling/what I am thinking. I feel a bit bored with school right now. It is getting close to the end of the semester, things are coming to a due date and I just feel no motivation to do any of it. I want to just take care of my baby girl and my wife. The more I think about school the more I stress. I know I need to get things done, but I just have no motivation to get it done.

I think I need a bit of relaxation time, but have no time to do such. Maybe I should just put my shoulder to the wheel and push along to get through this storm. Internal motivation is needs to push me. Although, it is hard to push yourself when you feel that you are out of gas. If I didn't have to work I think it would help me get things done for school, but then again, if I had more time to do nothing, I probably would be doing nothing anyway.

What I am going to do is just put my head down, bear this storm and get through it. I think I just stress too much about school and just need to relax from it, get it done and move on. Dwelling on the stress of school wont do anything for me. I can only do as well as I can, which can be very good. I need to surround myself with good influences of motivation and strength. My mother has great strength and determination. Jim has great motivation. My wife is a strong woman. Paul is a strong man and a motivation in my life to slow down and take things as they come at you. These people are great to me and I need to pay a closer eye to them.

Much love and smoochies.